【EGO】

【EGO】
Piano & Programming：HIROYUKI SAWANO | 钢琴&后期：泽野 弘之
Guitars：HIROSHI IIMURO | 吉他：饭室 ひろし
Strings：DAISENSEI MUROYA strings | 弦乐：大先生 室屋
Lyrics：mpi | 作词：mpi
Music：HIROYUKI SAWANO | 音乐：泽野 弘之
Vocal：MIKA KOBAYASHI | 演唱：小林 未郁

【REMIND YOU】

【REMIND YOU】
Piano & Programming：HIROYUKI SAWANO | 钢琴&后期：泽野弘之
Drums：YU“masshoi”YAMAUCHI | 鼓手：YU “マッショイ”YAMAUCHI
Bass：TOSHINO TANABE | 贝斯：田边としの
Guitars：KAZUYA TAKAYAMA | 吉他：たかやま かずや
Lyrics：mpi | 作词：mpi
Music：HIROYUKI SAWANO | 作曲：泽野弘之
Vocal：MIKA KOBAYASHI | 演唱：小林未郁

No job?

Seriously being unemployed for over a month is extremely frustrating. I've sent so many job applications and interview quite a few all of them looks promising at first. But then after these 2-3 weeks everything is like turning out to be somekind of jokes.

Again and again

Well, I've decided to quit my previous job and left Tarakan for good. It's without any reason. Just at the beginning of December suddenly there's problem arousing around my parents. My step mother got provoked and got jealous because of someone had forwarded text messages from my mother about my father whom he/she introduced his/herself as my mother's friend.

About my life

Well, after a long while I write on my blog again. Just likeold times, I had no place to put my thoughts and tell my story to anyone. It feels like I want to scream out loud and end up my miserable life. It's like a heavy burden that I have to carry on in my entire life. The way I used to live on solitary life, I really hate it. I envy peoples who have beautiful life on their job, their social life and their relationships. Why can't I be like them? What's wrong with me? Am I an alien or something? Almost in my entire life spent in solitary, ever since my early childhood.

Someone to love?

Who to love? A girl :)) Today I dropped tears after realized something about love, at least a precious fragment that I should keep in my heart. Well, I won't tell about how many times my struggle about love and about my ex-gfs. Including girls whom had crush with me back then lol, I'm so lame XD Anyway I was realizing a form of love that lasts in our life and constantly given to us :)

Hmmm...

Today I woke up late, as usual, lol. It was quiet here at home. Later I went down to the washing machine, taking care of my smelly clothes. Somehow I felt so lonely lately, stuck in daily activities, wake up late with my whole body aching-so tired, go to the market buying supplies, in the afternoon preparing the workplace, at dusk start to sell wonton noodles and going home late night. Almost everyday I do this activities, sometimes I felt bored, my only entertainment is this laptop, internet, and smoking.