About my life

Well, after a long while I write on my blog again. Just likeold times, I had no place to put my thoughts and tell my story to anyone. It feels like I want to scream out loud and end up my miserable life. It's like a heavy burden that I have to carry on in my entire life. The way I used to live on solitary life, I really hate it. I envy peoples who have beautiful life on their job, their social life and their relationships. Why can't I be like them? What's wrong with me? Am I an alien or something? Almost in my entire life spent in solitary, ever since my early childhood.

Someone to love?

Who to love? A girl :)) Today I dropped tears after realized something about love, at least a precious fragment that I should keep in my heart. Well, I won't tell about how many times my struggle about love and about my ex-gfs. Including girls whom had crush with me back then lol, I'm so lame XD Anyway I was realizing a form of love that lasts in our life and constantly given to us :)

Hmmm...

Today I woke up late, as usual, lol. It was quiet here at home. Later I went down to the washing machine, taking care of my smelly clothes. Somehow I felt so lonely lately, stuck in daily activities, wake up late with my whole body aching-so tired, go to the market buying supplies, in the afternoon preparing the workplace, at dusk start to sell wonton noodles and going home late night. Almost everyday I do this activities, sometimes I felt bored, my only entertainment is this laptop, internet, and smoking.

My first week on workplace

I should never thought it as good as I've imagined before. I was accepted as management trainee at futures company last week and start training since then. At first it looked very promising. Not about the income, but what we're about to do. We're taught how to analyze market. At first it was very chalenging, but then after I saw people worked there and some bitter facts, I couldn't help but to think the opposite.

Weekend

Today I opened my facebook and then I enter my alumni group forum. I'm pretty surprised that some of my friends - the girls is going to be married. Well actually I'm not bothered to feel encouraged to make a relationship with someone. But I think, we're all have grown up this old as if I felt that we're no longer young anymore. Man we're still 23 average but my friends are keep making impressions that they're desired and eagerly to get married soon especially the males.